Hormones are mean.

Well, there are some things I just don't want to say on Facebook.  I'm sorry my first post in a long time isn't about something happier; I have to get this off my chest.  And maybe some of you will be able to relate, but I think you're mostly spring chickens, aren't you?

I think my hormone levels are changing and I'm waiting for confirmation from the doctor's office, but to me the signs are pretty clear.  My skin is in full-time break-out mode, the joints in my hands hurt, and my emotions are all out of whack.  I'm beyond irritable most of the time, and at any given moment I can burst into tears if I allow myself.  At my desk, at the photocopier, at the bathroom sink, in the car--wherever, whenever.  (Fortunately I still have enough control to NOT allow myself.  I'm afraid of reaching the point of not having that control, though.  I don't want to be the crazy weepy woman.)

So, to sum up, I am a real joy and a blessing to everyone around me. 

It's hard for me to go anywhere.  Today I could not get myself to Rosh Hashanah services--attacked by the weepies as I walked out the door, I felt pretty strongly that I was too emotional to consider interacting with people.  J was with his father, so I stayed home and read a book instead.  I hope G-d will give me partial credit for at least being all dressed and ready to go, and really meaning to go.  

I thought I'd just wait until my annual check-up in October, but last week I caught myself thinking that I'd like to call in sick and cry all day.  And I figured, OK, that's enough of THAT.  So I saw my primary care provider (a wonderful nurse practitioner in an integrative health center) a couple of days later and had a lot of blood drawn and we'll see what comes of that.  There should be some results in a couple of days.  In the meantime, I'm running out for more tissues and benzoyl peroxide.

On a completely unrelated note, I just (finally) read all the Harry Potter books.  After seeing the sixth movie, I knew I was missing crucial information.  So I finished the seventh book tonight, and NOW WHAT????  I am going to miss the wizarding world.

Comments

[persephone]

So I don't know what I can do to help with the former (imaginary hugs don't really work the same, do they??), but I might be able to help with the latter. Diana Wynne Jones: just about everything JK Rowling knows, she learned from her. Start with the Chrestomanci books, they're the most similar.

[Nancy]

Thanks Persephone! I'll check them out.

[Laura]

I hope you're feeling better now!